On wanting more

The invisible life bucket list (that haunts me)

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I don’t know if you’ve ever been a part of any sort of spiritual/yogic/meditation/manifestation cult movement but one thing that comes up quite often is the idea of non-attachment. Don’t be attached to the outcome, they say, as if letting go of expectations of the future is as simple as flipping a switch. Okay, okay. I’m exaggerating, but it is something that is repeated time and time again. “You’ve got to know that you’ll be okay no matter what happens.”

I’ve gone through hard times. We all have, in our own ways. And yes, living through those times has made me more appreciative of the way things are now. Not to be all soppy about it but I like recognizing that I nowadays wake up feeling generally content (which wasn’t always the case). I can spend time alone and genuinely enjoy it without feeling this vast empty space between myself and the rest of the world (which wasn’t always the case). I take care of myself, am kind(er) to myself, stand up for myself (which definitely wasn’t always the case). But to be honest, that’s not enough. I want more.

Thank you, wise Pinterest quote